I'm alive. And done exams. This is probably the worst attitude in the world to have, but all my mind can think right now is "thank god that's done". Part of me doesn't even care if I failed, wasted four months of my year and spent 1000$ doing it. I worked my ass of and I failed. But if I let myself think slightly negatively about it, it becomes a slippery slope, usually leading me to think about the worst things in the world. And then I have a panic attack. So we're just not going there now. Probably eventually. Just not now.
So I'm keeping up with this blog over the break, and into next semester. Hopefully doing another directed study where I can keep this up. Otherwise it will likely just get lost in a sea of other projects I started and I've become oddly attached to this website, despite the fact that I'm pretty sure the only regular reader in the one who is marking me on this...(hi Ann!)
A sign I should be in school for awhile longer: the period of "Yay! freedom! I can do anything I want!" after an exam and before complete boredom sets in is about two or three hours. And yet... I managed to fuck up psychology like no one's business. Whatever. I'm looking into transfer programs... I may finally live my dream of being a student in Southern America. (No, not South America. I mean the American South; Alabama, Texas, Kentucky, Arizona. )
I'm not working on anything new right now, but will start something today. Possibly more Kincaid or Califia... not sure yet. I'm giving Curiouser another shot, and might try to work my way through the chapter on The Exorcist (the movie from the 70s, not one of the newer ones or the book). This means I'd have to watch the movie again and take notes. And the first time I saw it a few months ago, sleep was minimal for about four days after. So if I start writing a post and then part way through, it appears as though I cried and ran away, it's most likely I watched the Exorcist alone again.
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